A Collection of Messages for the Season of Darkness

Hello, Again. Nice to see you. It has been a Long Time. 

It has been quite a long time since I posted to this site. I cannot say exactly what happened, except that my cousin died at the end of July and since then my routine has been scrambled. The spaceship I'm traveling on changed its trajectory. I always knew I would be back, though. The question was, in what form? 

I am still in the middle of a transformation, and I don't know where my spaceship will land next, or the details of the path we are currently on. Our challenge is finding ways to love this uncertainty, to let go of who we think we are, what we think we need, to get less serious and find more ways to play, and to reconnect the parts of ourselves we lost to addictive behaviors and struggle.

All has not been lost. In this time I have learned that I AM an artist, meaning the purpose and joy of my life is to express what I carry inside, making it visible and available to the world. When I am aligned with my flow, everything I do becomes an art project, whether it is writing, drawing, moving, speaking, singing, listening, feeling, or receiving. Of course, this creative muscle is the one I've developed the least, and exposing it is the thing which gives me the most fear. 

We are all becoming better, truer versions of ourselves all the time

I'm learning to live for myself as opposed to seeking approval and attention from others. I am slowly increasing my self worth, alleviating my fear of humiliation and being exposed. As I fortify myself, I move into the practice of recognizing all others as unique expressions of the One Source God. That last one is a very advanced asana, despite the proliferation of "we are all one" on the web and in your local yoga studio. 

I would like to share a few messages that have come through to help me as I approach the season of darkness. My hope is that they will stir your soul, alleviate some of your discomfort, inspire you to create something, widen the space you're living in, or bring you a bit closer to remembering YOU are a DIVINE Being.  You, and I, are also completely Human, no matter how beautiful and inspiring our artwork or channeled messages get. That is completely perfect. So lets help each other claim more of who WE are. 

November 10 2017 - An invitation to Stillness, Audio Recording.

Sample: "We do not wish to ask for anything, as our asking feels like resistance. We have fears and desires, but we do not voice them, lest they interfere with the potency and beauty of our stillness. As a Divine Vessel, we open to Receive God, the Breath of Life, into our Sacred Temples. This we release as quickly as it came, lest its brute force be stagnated and turned to poison in our bodies". 

November 13 2017 - Shallow Pleasures and an Anonymous Channel. 

My brain is buzzing with shallow delights like honey toast and social media attention. It reminds me of looking up to view the stars while in the city. You can almost see them, but light pollution blocks most of it. This is how I feel about my brain on simple pleasures. Inner brilliance, like the stars, is always present, yet I can't see it through the artificial light of Brain Candy. 

The hot lemon water I'm drinking is calming me down, clearing some of the sugar fog from my mind. My inner pearl, the one seated right over my solar plexus, is increasing its' shine. The Rishi (geometric scalar wave) Code of AS comes into my mind. Ah it feels so good to clear my energy field using these codes from the Institute of Divine Potential. And Serendipitously, the DNA Regenesis course link has been restored to me. Now we begin to see the light in our stars. 

Are there any messages? I feel my jaw tingling, the sign that something wishes to come forth. 

Sometimes it is frustrating when the energy comes through scrambled, in raw form. Sometimes it is beautiful. But now, I can feel words trying to form in my mouth. There is an uncomfortable pressure on my chest, and I've got a slight headache. 

Love, Anonymous

We are here to serve you. Worry not who we are. We are your inner mind, your hazy first light in the evening. Watch the hours fall, silently. This is the end, and this is also the beginning. Some of you will know the purpose of all the waiting, all the worrying, all the starting and ending. You have no choice but to go through it, so keep your head lifted and walk with grace. You cannot feel the hot coals under your feet when the Light of God burns brightly within you. Clear your Body Temple. Clear it! Worship it! But only as the temporary vessel it is. Know that all physical things must die. They Must! Take it all, every turn of the wheel, every pleasure and pain, every breeze and sunset, every twitch and needle. You are Here, You are Breathing. 

July 11 2017 - When Things Go Dark

Human Speaks

Anxiety has fully implanted itself into my body. I can feel a change coming, an expansion perhaps. I recognize this feeling from the few times I've started a new job after being at home for a while. When you become complacent and comfortable in your space, growing out of it hurts. I miss waking up and feeling hopeful, high, and lifted. 

Confession: Sharing my Darkness

Yesterday I was hit with a wave of "Oh my God, why have I created my life this way". I realized I have been wasting the gifts I've been given - not sharing them to the best of my ability, allowing myself to be held back by laziness and fear. The pain of not fully walking one's path is intense and confronting. All of my resistance to being seen, to "putting myself out there", is now visible. I'm terrified of being seen in any way at the moment. I feel like I'm facing my biggest fears and blocks. 

The trigger point for this realization was a retreat being held in Sedona by my coach Jocelyn Daher,and collaborative partner Bentinho Massaro over the Lion's Gate portal this August 6-9.  The name of the retreat is 

THE RISE OF SHEPHERDING CONSCIOUSNESS

I BELONG THERE. My soul lights up in response to this, and my story is, "I can't afford it". It was then that I realized I haven't created a life that supports the expansion of my soul and my mission of service. WHY AM I NOT SUPPORTING MY MISSION WITH ABSOLUTELY ALL OF MY RESOURCES? 

FEAR, DOUBT and APATHY. That's why. Clinging to short term happiness because I don't quite believe in long term success. The limiting belief of "you can't have it" hides itself well, deep inside the cells. How can we excavate these? How can we illuminate them and release them from the field? 

I miss myself, I miss God. I miss feeling connected to the cause. I feel empty, morphed into a strange monster-like cave creature. Hiding.

My Higher Self Speaks - This is Who we Truly Are

I Am the Shepherd. No One Need Rescue Me, As I Usher Myself out of the Cave and into the Light. I Have Come To Be My Own Rescuer. I Carry the Light of Christ as My Salvation. Feel My Easy Strength. There is Nothing to Fight Against. By the Light of my Staff All is Drawn Up and Out of the Cave. Look for My Light in the Darkest of Places. Feel it Coming Toward You, and know that you Called Me, an Aspect of Yourself, to Awaken and Shepherd you back Home to God. 

Thank you. I would like to love you so brilliantly in my heart. I would like us to slow dance in a bucket of stars. I would like to spin spin spin, until my body vibrates and lifts into an expansive band of consciousness. The relief is palpable, and without human emotion. This is the Eternal Presence, always available as refuge. 

A Message to All of You

Love yourself, Love yourself. Relax into your discomfort as much as you can. Remember All is Love, All is God. Allow the Mother Goddess to cradle your head in Her lap, whether you "deserve it" or not. We See You, and We Love You. All Is Well. 

June 22 2017- The Field of Potential

Human Speaks

Ritual is bringing me joy. Knowing the path to expanded consciousness is like slipping into a warm pool of water. Each day I approach this altar, light a stick of palo santo wood and call in my higher self, guardians, angels and guides, as I watch the smoke illuminate the energy matrix all around me.  I then place 3 drops each of bergamot, clary sage, and rosemary into my candlelight diffuser. The oils may change day to day but the process is constant. I open my writing journal and pick up my pen. First there is a mix of excitement and anxiety, like approaching the home of a friend you love but have only recently met in this life. 

Vision Speaks - A Journey to the God Head

The field is open. Before me is a Vast Horizon, stretching out in all directions. Brilliant shimmering light dances across my field of vision. Everything is fluid, oscillating between perpetual motion and stillness. I open my heart, expanding its magnetism to fill the entire scene. I see timelines activating. Threads lighting up and jumping out of the homogenous soup. Settling into complete Joy and Love. I Am Open. My body merges with the active threads, taking their potential into itself. Soon I Am the still point, everything swirling around me. The spin interrupts the force of gravity, and I Am suspended in the middle of this vortex. I can Now feel I Am traveling, surrounded by Violet, Blue, and Diamond White light. I am reaching the field of the God Head, greeted by Legions of Light. I release my body and become pure consciousness. I Receive fortification, a blessing from the Most High. 

Message Received

See, Hear, Feel, Smell, Touch. Your senses will serve you Now. This is how you will bring your Higher Self into the Earthly Body. Clear your space and invite the Light to enter. The Human is Divine, and this is to be Remembered Now. You will demonstrate This, for the Upliftment of All. 

My light body is joined by two others, forming a Sacred Trinity. There is a sense of Wholeness I've not felt before. My triangle begins to spin, faster and faster until I am back in the Field of Potential. I call in the Most High, I call in the Most High. Cradle my Human in Love, so we may serve the Mother, Father, I Am Presence. Call in our greatest Joys and Freedoms. We Are Free, We Are Free, We Are Free. Release your creativity, letting its power morph, change and grow. You Are Everything, and You Are Nothing. You are a Shapeshifter, a Time Traveler, a World Bridger. You may have it all and possess nothing. Uncurl your fingers, release your grip. Your biggest mistake is thinking you know what will happen next. Breathe, Breathe, Breathe, expand your Heart, Relax your Mind, Feel into your Gut. This is a Sacred Trinity within you. Balance these with the infinity symbol, bringing all into cohesive alignment. Ayam Ahtma Brahma. E'esta, U'nta, E'sa. 

June 2 2017 - Are you All In?

Human Speaks

These last two days have brought challenges to my worthiness, and I can interestedly say that they haven't rocked me the way I would expect. Everything I am doing and experiencing is perfect for me at this time. 

Tuning in

Yes, I can feel the rivers rushing in, sweeping through my being. Breathe In. My heart rises up to speak. What are you aching for?

Connection, Connection, Connection. We must be pulled, prompted, rocked back and forth in the waves of our Ocean. 

The sun blinks overhead, reflecting off the crests in the water. Sometimes we are drowning without angst, the water rolling up and over our heads, submerging us in our private container. Our body relaxes into each ebb and flow. Moving into Omnipresence, Now.

Traveling 

There is an inner galaxy, vast as the universal neighborhood we observe in the stars. Show me everything. My body becomes the flash of light, reflected into expansive nothingness. 

Insight

I call for more space in my physical body. I can feel the Christ Vibration coming in, and I feel my body struggle to open and hold it. I Am That I Am. 

Are we hiding? Missing someone who can take us deeper into ourselves? 

Mother and Father of Compassion Speak

Christ frequency enters. We are here to love what arises. We are here to love the sadness, the fear, the jealousy, the anxiety, the rage, the shame, the confusion, the resentment, the frustration.

Our heart expands with a brilliant Rose Pink glow. We feel the energy of the Goddess Quan Yin, Mother of Compassion, enter our Heart Space.

"Here, Here is what it is", she says. The Mother Mary is here now as well.

"We offer a Deep Mother's Compassion, Empathy, and Love to all which has forgotten its name. We bring the fallen children home. On our knees with arms outstretched, we call all that has been Forsaken back to the Light of God. Bring us your tired, your poor, your hungry, all those who have forgotten their True Divine Nature. Do not be afraid, Do not be afraid. Turn toward your fear and open your arms. A single tear may roll down your cheek as you welcome your Divine Sister back home. We Have Never Forgotten, We Have Never Stopped Seeing You As You Are."

Prayers and Affirmations

Bring us the opportunities. Bring us those we are meant to heal, to celebrate, to create with. If we are meant to heal our Self today, bring us only to our Self. 

We are Happy, We are Healthy, We are Abundant, We are Free. We choose to create our universe, we choose to collaborate this creation with others. We choose to welcome resistance into our loving embrace. We choose to BE, unwavering, the Respiration of Love. We empty our vessel each day, each moment, so we may facilitate the Breath of God. Breathe in through Me, Breathe out through Us, connected to each other through the backs of our Divine Hearts. We Are All Here, We Are All In. 

May 25 2017- This One is For the Lightworkers

In case you'd rather listen.... 

Human Speaks

We have no time for pity parties. Sadness and feeling bad for ones Self can be alluring. Ego is a clever, tricky character, like the Native American Fox totem. It is so easy to compare oneself to others, to judge and decide we aren't as amazing or as valuable - to allow that blue rain to pour down from behind our eyes into our heart. 

I am constantly slipping into "not wanted" or "not good enough". This is the hunger of the ego. She prefers to be shown evidence that she IS awesome, wanted, and good enough, but in the absence of that feedback from the external world she flips to the opposite without hesitation. Either perspective will do, as long as the focus is on ME. 

Soul Speaks

We choose to focus on what we can create - what we can pull down from the field of infinite potential, to manifest in the world for the healing and elevation of all. What can we create, to light up our own heart with bliss, joy, and love? We choose to balance our energies, relaxing and opening when we feel ourselves pushing, attaching, or driving too hard. Picking up the reins and digging our heels in a bit when things get too lackadaisical and dreamy.

Wisdom Speaks

The truth, is that bringing the subtle realm into the physical is a balancing act.  Just like a baby learning to use his body, or a teenager learning to drive a car, we must go through that awkward trial-and-error phase when it comes to driving our newly activated energetic bodies. As we remember and unlock our higher potential, we must carefully integrate it with our human reality. This is the work, folks. Sometimes we are reveling in our light bodies, feeling energized, joyful and free, and this is beautiful. Other times we drop deeply into our physical bodies, our physical realities, and spend time rewiring the circuitry in order to support our upgrade. Just because the electric company is delivering higher amperage to your house doesn't mean you can use it right away. First, you have to update your electric service capacity! We are the entire electrical system: The power plant, delivery channel, electrician, and the house. 

In the meantime, it is important to mind your vibration, or, the level of consciousness your thoughts and emotions are stationed at. You can't afford to let yourself slip into old thought patterns and beliefs for any longer than it takes to acknowledge and release them. The time of doubt and uncertainty has passed. The time to lace up your boots and take your wobbly legs for a walk in the direction of your heart's desires has arrived.